Tea & A Sunrise

As I woke up this morning to the sound of my alarm, I realized that I've been running too fast.  Waking up, opening the blinds, and feeling the sun come in as I sipped at my tea made me remember how much the small things really do matter.  I had not been running too fast in a literal sense (that would never happen for me since I am anything but physically active), but figuratively running through life too fast these past few months. Instead of actual living, it's all been such a quick blur. Of course I remember what has happened, but I think that I'm really going too fast. And in all this running, I think that I have not been focusing on making my faith the center of my life. Yes, I've kept all the teachings and doctrines close, but in the running, I haven't been making them the goal. I've made them the means by which to reach the goal. In doing this, I've made material things my goal, but in the long run, have made the big goal of being worthy of God's love a bit more fuzzy than it used to be.

I have not been able to blog for quite a while now due to life and all its craziness, and I am not even sure that after this one I'll be able to get back to it on a regular basis, but life decided to give me a chance this morning, especially after the sunrise gave itself to me to put me in a writing mood. I'm sure that you can understand how that feels, to finally have a mood to write after so long of not being able to. It's not that you really couldn't, but that time and life just got in the way. Always running and never pausing to stop and think about the racing through life that you always do. This may not be you, but for me, it's a very familiar concept.  

I ask for your prayers that I would find a way to bring God back as the center of my life, and not just something that comes when it comes and goes when it goes.  I pray for any of you who feel the same way and need the intercessions too.  The thing that really inspires me to keep fighting the urge to give up is that many of the saints have felt the same way at times in their lives, but made it through by fighting the temptation of not praying and praying even harder.  May God be with us all.